I’m so torn… I don’t know what to do… I feel so depressed…
I had my appt with Dr. Scumpia today. She won’t give me the referral. She says I’m only overweight and not morbidly obese. Excuse me, but since when was a BMI of 42 considered simply overweight? Can she please tell that to the insurance company so I can qualify for life insurance? I’m sorry I’m so upset. It’s just… why should I not qualify simply because I hide my weight well? She also says I’m still young… well, no duh… everyone I’ve talked to who has had the surgery has said that they wish they had done it 10 yrs ago!
To top it all off, I hit an all-time high for me of 251 lbs today. I’ve never weighed 250 before. And now she wants me to go on the liquid diet… I’m terrified of the liquid diet…
My mom and brother have each done the liquid diet twice… my mom is now back to her pre-liquid diet weight and my brother is 100 lbs heavier than when he started it.
I realize that in comparison to some, I am not as heavy. But I feel MISERABLE. Don’t they make a cut-off for a reason? 100 lbs overweight and BMI of 40+… do I not qualify?
